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thats life now [May. 4th, 2006|06:21 pm]
[Current Location |school... woohoo]
[Current Mood | jealous]
[Current Music |crash-test dummies. winter song]

everyday has been different, but all tied down to the same things. i miss evian. and i miss this time last year. this summer should be interesting. i am going to go back to camp tamarack for a while and see how that goes. at least i will have my hill up there, and my peace. and i will be close to the one i love.

there isn't a moment that goes by that i don't think of the past, and the memmories i love. the ones i don't love i still remember, and cherish. it's the way i have learned, and it's the way i think. i'm ready.

this time, in a month, everything will change. everything will be done. and i will be free again. nothing to worry about.

now all i need to do is find a car. does anyone here know anyone selling their car for... cheap?? i need it.

it's so odd not having evian. just the little things. the rides here and there, the smile, or the octopus dance. the latte's and the special latte's. love and friendship, of my closest friend who i spent every waking moment with. how could i have been so blind? i guess i just thought that he would never do that. no one really thinks that their best friend, who is so happy one day, would commit suicide the next.

to all it is worth. and what it's not worth. it's a memory.
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(no subject) [Apr. 14th, 2006|01:59 pm]
Detectives are investigating the death of a man whose body was found early Thursday dumped along Larch Mountain Road in the Columbia River Gorge.

Lt. Michael Shults, spokesman for the Multnomah County Sheriff's Office, said someone called 9-1-1 at 12:34 a.m. to report spotting the body.

"We're questioning the person who reported it to see if we can piece together how the body came to be dumped there," Shults said. Police identified the man as Evian Di Stefano, 20, of Portland.



Please, if anyone has any pictures or quotes or anything from Evian, I need them. He was very dear to me as I know he was to others. Anything remotly related to him, I need. I am trying to put together a memorial for him and I would really like any input on it. thank you all very much. you were all a great part in Evian's life.

love,

Kendall
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myspace [Dec. 6th, 2005|10:51 am]
yes, i know this is kinda going against livejournal, but check me out on myspace, i'm on there much more


myspace.com/kendieann11
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i love the fishes... [Oct. 13th, 2005|09:10 am]
[Current Mood | curious]

cuz theyr'e so delicious!

anyway, I am in class right now (my computer class) and I am super happy because I left my floppy disc in the computer on Tuesday and it was still here today! YAY!

hope everyone is well!

Much love,
K-dog
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hi love [Sep. 26th, 2005|08:22 pm]
[Current Mood | busy]
[Current Music |Death cab for cutie]

Lila-

I love you and I miss you mucho!

Anyway, so today was my first day of college. I sat for an hour listening to the professor explain the sylabis, then for another hour i listened to everyone else in the class talk about themselves. I did a little talking aswell. god, it's so nice to be in an environment where it doesn't really matter what you say, cuz it won't affend anyone, and its just your own opinion and other people can build on it and respond differently or agree. I love college. It's so much better than high school. just the whole way it's thought about. it's a lot more chill and relaxed. sure there are a lot of papers, but it really isn't that bad.
then this afternoon i dropped a class. so now i have history on monday's and wednesday's and computer concepts on tues/thurs. I also have an online class (organizations and people) which i am so stoaked about. however, i can't reach teh class online because my computer sucks. thank god a new one is arriving sometime this week. i hope i will be moving out soon, and getting a new laptop. hopefully if all goes well. ya'know?

ok well i need to go do some reading cuz i have HOMEWORK!!! YAY. ... . .. yeah i know, but it's exciting for me for right now because of the fact it's my first college assignment!
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an ode to secrets [Sep. 3rd, 2005|08:57 pm]
[Current Mood | excited]
[Current Music |50 cent, just a little bit ....]

secrets don't make friends, a friend once told me, and oh how it's true. however, secrets are the backbone of our society today. nobody really knows what's going on... but that's just the jist of it.

anyway, i could go on and on about that but insted i am going to talk about how crazy kim is!!! I miss you muffin and you need to call me when you can!

oh, and i'm excited
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yeah coffee dugout [Aug. 30th, 2005|02:19 pm]
[Current Mood | blah]
[Current Music |tom petty and the heartbreakers!!]

sittin at work. not too busy this afternoon. when school starts up at lincoln we will have a lot more coming in, but i have a pending job at ben and jerry's once again. life has been pretty sweet to me. i have a friend coming in on sunday from england to visit me for a couple of days which should be wonderful! I am so excited for her to come. she will be staying with me meaning i have to clean up the extra room (my old room) and make it all nice for her. easier said than done. that place is a shithole right now. lol. plus it doesn't help that my cat has turned it into his own little barf/piss room cuz the dorr is always open. that little fucker, i love him so much hahaha. i'm starting to get a little sad that i won't be going back to lincoln, but then i think to myself.... FUCK NO there is no way i am going back lol. pcc will be a good change and i am looking forwards to it. i'm a little scared, and i will have a lo more classes that i will need to take in order to get the requierments for their high school diploma, but it will get me ahaed in college and thats what i want to do.
well it's about time for me to go clean something or something. i really want to watch the last 2 episodes of the oc.... but i should probably do that later.

much love to all,
kendall
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(no subject) [Aug. 17th, 2005|01:01 am]
[Current Mood | anxious]
[Current Music |radio]

hahah what's funny is that in my last post, i couldn't wait to go back to camp... now i just want to go home. i am sick of it here and i feel that it's showing a lot how much i don't want to be here. i am done with camp tamarack. too many memories and i can't make them happen again. not when the other half of the memory is sleeping woth someone else. i am just glad that there are only 5 more days left or so. not even that really, but close. i should be home sunday night, although i really don't know how i am going to get home because i dont' have a ride, and i can't just waltz out of camp with two big bags and a guitar. oh well.

i hope everyone elses summers have been fantastic and i will see you all when i get home!!!! miss you and love you!
-Kendie
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Camp T!! [Jun. 26th, 2005|08:12 pm]
[Current Mood | grumpy]
[Current Music |Keith Urban]

I have been away for the past two weeks, and a lot has happened since i last posted.....

i finished high school, finally, however, when i got home today, i got my grades, and got two D's which fucking sucks cuz i could have sworn that i got c's in those classes, but i guess not. so now i have to take them over again in night school or something. i want to be able to do them in summer school but i can't cuz I have to work this summer in sister's and PPS are fucking idiots for changing the passing grade from a D to a C right before I left school. those fuckers. but i think my algebra was going to give me a D no matter what even if I aced the damn final cuz he is just an asshole like that.

Anyway, on Saturday the 11th of June I left for camp Tamarack, and I have been there for the past two weeks now. That's really about it. I've met some awesome people (Jessie) who are going to be my friends for a long long time. And I can't wait to go back. I'm only back home for 10 days, then I leave again to go back to work. And if anyone wants to donate a car to the "Kendall needs a car to survive this summer" foundation, PLEASE PLEASE donate. hahaa, The reason why I say that is cuz last year I was able to go in anyones car and all that jazz, get to go into town with anyone and stuff. But this year, I am not able to go anywhere unless withmy bosses or if I had my own car. and for reals, if anyone is selling their car or anything, I will buy it. I am desparate.

hope everyone's summers are going well. call me and we can chill this week or something!!!

-Kendall
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(no subject) [Jun. 26th, 2005|08:11 pm]
[Current Mood | blah]
[Current Music |Keith Urban]

You Are Absinthe!
You have a unique personality. Although most like you, sometimes you take some getting used to. You can be a bit strong. You are full of energy and sometimes flamboyant. You are the life of the party but if people are not careful you can knock them on their ass.

What Naughty My Little Pony Are You?

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(no subject) [May. 30th, 2005|09:07 pm]
[Current Mood | crazed]

so, i woke up around 7, took a shower, got all my crap to go to the gym, get on the bus and go down to the dugout to work for a little before i go workout... but it's closed... and it's 10am... so i am like...ok, whatever, i'll go for a run, come back and see if it's open so i do, and it's still not open, so i call evian (the boss) and he doesn't answer, and so i call cody (the co-worker) and wake him up and he has no clue what's happening or where he is, or where his car is. so that plan didn't work. then my friend hiroki texts me saying he is in washington park and he was bored, so i made him come down to the dugout, and we got into the car and drove to his house so i could see it. then we went to scottie pippins house and hiroki decides to jump the back fence and go into the yard while there is an old lady accross the street watching him... so we get back into the car really fast, and drive around the neighborhood, and end up at the top of this hill where there is a starbucks and a pizzacato. so we go to pizzacato and get some salads, then he lets me drive, and we go all over skyline, for about 2 hours, and we look down at the gas gadge and it's almost empty... hahahaha, so we drive down the hill, and we end up in scappoose. we get gas, then go to the dairy queen and get some ice cream, then race a red toyota back to portland, but we decide to stop at sauvies island and drive around there, so we do that, then go to psu we meet lila, kevin, frank, and a whole lotta people, decide to go bowling at hollywood bowl, go bowling. my friend mace gets there (hiroki's roommate who just moved here) and so hiroki, mace and i go to skyline burgers and get dinner. then we went back to hiroki's condo,  then mace's lover gets there and they leave, so we decide to watch a movie, so we put in garden state, barely get it started before we decide we need lucky charms.so we walked to safeway, and got some lucky charms, and milk, and went back to the condo, then he let me drive again and we went to the rose gardens, and then we went to the nocturnal and met everyone again then i went over to lila'a to sleepover. and we smoked a lot of weed (while i was with hiroki)
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(no subject) [May. 30th, 2005|08:35 pm]
[Current Mood | content]
[Current Music |The Bravery]

Your Sexy Brazilian Name Is

VerĂ´nica Mendes

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updating [May. 16th, 2005|07:20 pm]
[Current Mood | grumpy]
[Current Music |3 days grace]

***SIGH***

way too much drama and shit in the life of me right now. way too much drama. i do not like drama. especially sad drama, 18 more days left of school for me, and i have so much to do. i have to take finals early because i have to leave for work on the night of the 10th or the morning of the 11th in june, but that means i will be done with lincoln for the rest of my life in 18 days!!! i just can't put any of my work off and i have to study like the beast i am. RAR... **meow**. Ah, yes, so the stress begins. and relationships with people? they do not exist. i can't party as much, i have to study, and then i leave for camp. wow, it's kinda just all hitting me right now as i write this, i'm going to have to go to all 6 classes every day for 18 days now. lets see... that means it's math time... that works out to be 80 classes in the next 18 days. that's a lot. not to mention though the assemblys that I WILL SKIP!. fuck them, fuck them all. i wish i could just study for my finals now and just skip the rest of school, slowly just stop going to certian classes. fisrt i would take the us history final so i wouldn't have to get up so damned early. next math... ahahahah!!!!!

wow... this update must sound really boring. but what i really feel inside, and am thinking i cannot post on the internet. for those of you who know me well enough you know thats happening in my life, and i have no need to write it down, and if you don't know whats going on, you don't need to.

 

 

How to read a poem:

You can read the poem

But that is not the poem

Watch the white paper

Between the lines.

Look through that white

As though white snow

To see what butterbups and lilies

Are pushing up from below.

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(no subject) [May. 14th, 2005|04:20 pm]
[Current Mood | curious]
[Current Music |classical]


The Keys to Your Heart



You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.





hahaha, the sad thing about this... is that it's so true. crazy
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.....hobo and a half [Apr. 30th, 2005|08:17 pm]
[Current Mood | aggravated]
[Current Music |album leaf]

so my birthday was deffinentaly interesting. ended up getting a new phone, much needed. and went out to dinner with my parents and lila. my mom wasn't going to go at first, got into this masive fight. yeah, good'ol times at the house. friday, got drunk...no more needs to be said. and today.... yeah why do i even write in this
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the sun the sun AAAHHHHH [Apr. 26th, 2005|11:15 pm]
[Current Mood | restless]

ah, spring...love is in the air...doo dodooododoo.

NOT.
well it is, kinda, hopefully.
this summer will be a good one.
i get to go to the jack johnson concert with my lover on august 16th!!!!! YAY
i hate looking that far into the future...
anyway, juat had a little photo shoot with myself, yes myself, it was great.
there is frozen corn on my wrist.
i love sunglasses.
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recent tragic events [Apr. 24th, 2005|08:12 pm]
[Current Mood | geeky]
[Current Music |arcade fire]

a day in the life of me... how exciting. waking up late, taking a shower, going downtown, playing scrabble and royaly getting my ass kicked. sitting in subway falling asleep, meeting up with brooke for coffee and then finding a fly in my coffee cup after i drank the whole thing... yum... going into the comic book store with brooke and talking to RAMANDO for a half an hour about everything... wow that was interesting. waiting for a phone call all day long and never having it come to me... damn hot guys who don't call me when they say they will. cooking my culinary masterpiece, finding out that i am going to ODS may 8-13. oh yes. and now i get to eat my culinary masterpiece.

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sweet mother of jesus. [Apr. 23rd, 2005|11:06 am]
[Current Mood | hungover]
[Current Music |arcade fire]

sweet, i got 100% on my driver's lisence test, and my picture didn't turn out too bad. Last night was amazing and I talked to this really cool guy for like 3 hours, then he walked me partialy home. and he bought me gum. it was really good. and evidently we like almost everything the same. it's crazy. i'm going to get coffee with him tomorrow i think. i hope. anyway gotta go clean, people are coming over for dinner, and the house is supposedly a mess.... even though its not at all.
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(no subject) [Apr. 20th, 2005|08:26 pm]
[Current Mood | awake]

Tomorrow I take my driver's lisence test!!! WOOHOO! I'm so passing and all that jazz.
Yesterday I worked for 4 hours scooping ice cream. Yes I have a job at ben and jerry's. OH BABY! I'm pretty stoked about it. It should be really good, and lots of the people there are complete asses, but that's why they are quiting, and i get their hours AHAHHA booya.
My birthday is in a week!!! YAY.
Ok time to go,
laters
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(no subject) [Apr. 18th, 2005|08:24 pm]
[Current Mood | bored]

(x) smoked a cigar
(x) made out with a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(x) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of my parents' house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested <<<<------ NO! so lucky
(x) made out with a stranger
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
(x) slept with a co-worker
(x) seen someone die
(x) had a crush on one of your livejournal friends
(x) been to Canada -
(x) been on a plane
(x) thrown up in a bar (in the bathroom)
(x) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
(x) been snowboarding
(x) met someone in person from livejournal
( ) been moshing at a concert
(x) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
(x) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
(x) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) slept beneath the stars

(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
( ) been in a car accident
(x) had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) shot a high caliber gun
( ) shot someone
( ) been shot

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